yesterday: baby came surprisingly early and got some dvd's to watch! 17 AGAIN was funny and WATCHMEN is longg but pretty good. the day was pretty relaxing but of course cheer & football ruined it! boooo! :[ after a looong ugly day of just CHEER and no dance, i was tired as heck, but for some reason i still wanted to walk my papas<3 me and jakrin walked them and TOTO got away! babe ran up summitrose to get him. took awhile but he finally came to ME rofl. knows his mama :] we decided to bring them to verdugo and let them run around for a while but when we got there there was a whole bunch of hugee dogs! D: we ended up going to sunland park and staying there til 9:30. surprisingly it was pretty packed full of families and kids, the boys ended up having fun! jakrin & i had a really good talk about the future and after high school.. <3 hes really determined to get what he wants, but im still not sure yet. aha btw bonded with paulina, she really opened up to me! we're sooo close to our lib! ayeee either way im happy :]

today: woke up to babes call & we talked more about things (: decided to get subway while we returned the dvds. have to go to ctown tomorrow with babe cuz of a STUPID lady! bitch. ugh. practice was chill, stunted our mascot ALLEN! talked about cheer camp! paid 200 dollars and it hurt :[ "i love cheer i love cheer i love cheer!" ohman imma work at coldstones tomorrow! 3 to 6 but im staying for the full night! soo excited for bonfire saturday! i miss everyone<3

BTW

this month im suppose to give up 200 bucks and i am not giving another 5 for jvs boxes. ooooh oooh & if your reading this

VERDUGO'S CHEERLEADERS ARE FUNDRAISING AT COLDSTONES CREAMERY IN LA CRESCENTA 3231 FOOTHILL BLVD. SUITE 105 FROM 12 PM TO WHEN IT CLOSES PLEASE COME & SUPPORT <3

epic failure

july 24; TGIF no practice! babe came over really early, felt really crappy. decided last minute to go to manhattan just us 2. went to his house and cleaned his house, his mom gave us 60 bucks to buy 1 bag of dog food and 2 cans of raid :] couldnt stop cleaning but he finally got me to stop! pigged out on the way to the beach. took pictures, faced hugee waves, made a sand castle, and was forced out of the water for going too deep LOL. babe bought us 2 tubs of ice cream for the way home, fell asleep and drove once we got to tujunga. the day wouldve been perfect if i didnt find something out from the stupid internet. -.- ruined everything.

july 25; began the day home alone, planning to go to manhattan beach with babe came late cuz he borrowed his brothers car and the stupid battery needed to be recharged. ridiculous. picked up thalia, kevin, & ben. drove only 30 mph on the freeway, even more ridiculous. was stranded at a mini mall in la crescenta, said some things to jakrin that i wasnt sorry for. was already upset at something i found out the night before ughhh. thalias dad picked us up spent the rest of the day at thalias house on myspace and watching burn after reading while the guys went swimming. walked home with jakrin following me cuz his brother had his car. really really pissed off, told him how i felt, cooled off. very very inconsiderate & insincere but after awhile he came through. still upset though, stupid, immature, desperate stuff man.

AW <3

"So the next time you’re sharing a sunset with someone you love, having a laugh with some friends, or even fighting with one of your parents, remember our lives are but a fleeting moment in time. They come and go so quickly. Live each day of your life to the fullest, as if it’s all going to end tomorrow. You have to live for what you have, live for now, grasp every second that you can.

Appreciate and love everything there is. Cherish every breath you take, every smile you share, and every tear that falls. These are the moments that pass without a single thought." -Arielle Sumner Consoli

WEEKENDS ARE LOVE

july17: sooo happy no practice! woke up to babe coming over! disappointed cuz he left something that ive been waiting for!
but its okay he took me out to ihop LOL. went home and helped mom with a bunch of stuff for corrinas birthday. had to leave cuz we were already running late, picked up marifel and thalia and baby dropped us off at JYC while he had a CANDLE LIT DINNER WITH EDY! xD fattass me ate more!
lol carne asada tacos yumm! :) played charades, went to the 99, jaddis got us a ride to glendale :]! bought tubs of ice cream and snuck it into HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE! we're down like that.
bbygirls boyfriends met up with us just before the movie started. had funn with my babe and my babygirls! baby took the tujunga girls home aha got lost in

the empty parking lot and got SCARED out of our minds by a bird and jakrin LOL that MADE OUR NIGHT xD






july18: woke up cleaned the house HAPPY BIRTHDAY CORRINA YOU LITTLE WEIRDO! baked JAKRINS DADDY A CAKE FOR HIS BIRTHDAY<3 jakrin came by for a while and finally brought my 120 palette and my brushes! but i broke some already :[ oh boo! lol ohwell i know how to fix them. marifel and thalia came over, did there makeup. really really proud of my job on marifel! <3 wooohooo this picture is a good one of her eyes :] and my sisters happy birthday face aha i look like shit though. went to thalia and met up with jaddis, yennie, & britney. magic mic-ed and played drinking games & danced!




the guys ended up crashing it aha but its all good. jason, ricky, jetson, brian, & charlie. jason the SWEETHEART took care of everyone. jetson drunk serenaded us ahaha hes pretty goood! ricky hooked up with... :X LOL. charlie and brian were too fcked up to remember anything xD people got TOO DRUNK while people like me just had some gooood ole funn! overall had a goooood night<3 more pictures!! :D




i love my babygirls and thalias family<3 stayed up talking to the marifel, britney, & jaddis. ate cold corn dogs and got caught ahaha slept around 5 ishh.
songs of the night:
girls just wanna have fun, shots, i gotta feeling, like a virgin




july19: woke up sweating cuz it was frikkin hottt! hung out in the living room with the boys, ate cookies and cream ice cream & took a dip in the pool.
bonded with marifel<3 found out that jakrin got fcked up at his own party LOL scared knowing he drove here and his phone was off.. went back to his house just for a USC sweater LOL and came back. he smelled like alcohol eww lol.
his car battery died at thalias and my mom picked us up and took us to go grocery shopping with her :] came back to the house and ate, babe stayed till 11 ishh and got picked up by a family friend who took his car. goood day-ishhh

finally thursday!

babe woke me up and called me to come over, but i ended up just sleeping the whole time while he slept on the floor. pooor baby :( haha he made me and my sister a thai omelet it was gooood! went to practice early with thalia and our little hats ahaha hung out with babe in the cheer office. helped thalia teach band dances! after practice, went with marifel and edward to video hut, rented push and watched it at mi casa. gooood movie! when marifel and edward left we decided we wanted funnel cake and coldstones so babe took me, corrina, and my mom to la crescenta! went home and ate real food aha! dessert then dinner? said a looooong bye to babe, caught up with hammy. tomorrow ihop, jyc, then harry potter! :D

7/15

yesterday; busted a hella mission to jakrins house! sooo proud of myself, his mommy was soooo happy to see me & i was soo happy to see her! bonded with his family and stayed til 12:30 aha dollar menud it at jacks cuz we wanted to eat late! picked up thalia & got clothes. practice was hardishhh.. hardcore workouts while its burning up! booo. got out early though, stunted in the stuffy gym! went to thalias after for a bit and then watched haunting in conneticut with boyfrann and familia. caught up with ashley! woohoo slept at 1 ishh.

today; woke up to babes call :] spent the day watching harry potter. he made me korean noodles yumm! currently in the girls locker room awaiting my doom for practice :[ BLAH! i needa catch up with jaddis <3

HAPPY

sunday 7/12: me and jakrin are back together! :D long story short i called him and told him i cant do this, he told me hes not okay when hes without me. really REALLY REALLY unexpected cuz well if you knew whats been going on for the past month.. sigh. but hes here now! i already made plans with thalia but i wanted to see if he could go along cuz i really missed him :/ tried going to hansen dam, EPIC FAIL! super packed and no parking & when we were about to get parking, stupid tanned car stole it then we were finally waiting on someone and got a txt saying lets just go to thalias. happy though cuz the line to get in was LOONG and jakrin still needed to go to long beach again to pick his brother up!

lol went swimming with thalia, marifel, bby albert, aldrich, & edward. left early to go pick up his brother with jakrin, caught up along the way with everything we missed. on the way back got some yummy bean filled pastries from his brother! mommy called me to come home so we went to go eat there. had BOMBBB burgers and made a strawberry milkshakes!

asked my mom if i could go back to thalias for some MAGIC MIC, faill again. pluss jakrins dad called him to go to thai town so he left early. called YENNIE second boyfriend updated her and helped me come up with a plan to do something nice for jakrin for once!

today 7/13: alarm woke me up, jakrin was already up getting ready at 8 in the morning! got here at 9 :] we had a full house though! john was in the den, corrina was sleeping in my room, so we had to hang out in the living room. slept til nearly 12 and ate chicken bake, ham and cheese croissant, etcetc. picked up thalia, bby eric, and her cousin.

thalia had to stall while i set up what i needed to do. bby eric and thalias cousin helped me, but in the end it was incomplete cuz we didnt have time and the wind was blowing all my letters away! :[ "the letters are flying away!" "go get them eric!" lol in the end it looked crappy, but its the thought that counts! practice was burning hottt but we got our SAILOR and our RAINBOW and our QUARTER UP, even if paulina wasnt here. went to thalias after practice and ate sandwiches, had fun, then went home cuz momma called me! superr tired, knocked out really early but woke up at 11:11 LOL! coool stuff :]

basically the rest of my week

thursday night, friday morning: i did all the girls' makeup and marifel hurrr! made a music video! woohooo checkkk it out!



we slept at 5:45 in the morning and woke up at 15 minutes later, loaded all our stuff and went to yennies knocked out!
friday after noon: woke up and set up magic mic! :] saaaang and jaddis came! talked and cleared things up, "REMEMBER THE TIME WHEN WE WERE IN YENS LIVING ROOM TALKING TO JADDIS!?" lol missed her! monkey interlude dance, ham & turkey QUESAdillas yennie lol! kat, & william came. sang KNOCK YOU DOWN in acapella. kat took us home at 9 something, knocked out like at 10 prettyy early for me i know aha.


saturday: corrinas boyfriend ended up getting my free ticket to universal studios cause it was suppose to be my sister and her boyfriend and me and jakrin. & i didnt wanna be a 3rd wheel, so i went with mommy & daddy. called ashley & chelsea since we were in hollywood, picked them up, and went to the grove. ate at the farmers market! gooood stufff! went to forever tried on a really ugly stuff, just for fun and really cute stuff, which i bought :] joy! then went to victorias secret bought some underwear! 7 for 25 guys only for this weekend!




went to the mac store and took photobooth pictures, even my mom and dad liked it LOL!







wow big pictures? idk i hope this resizes ahaha. we dropped off the girlies & me and my momma went grocery shopping together and rented changeling and last chance harvey! :] i ended up talking to SOMEONE til 4 in the morning.. :] ill save this stuff for later..

sunday: woke up REALLY REALLY HAPPY!! going to the hansen dam today with thalia and her familia. pooor guy, woke up an hour after we hung up to go to long beach :[ blogging cuz im not hungry & i cant get ready yet... ^-^ im stronger than you think guys & soooo ready to move forward. he might see me today :) !

swimming & sleepover

slept at 3 from phoning with yennie! woke up at 6:30 and went to yennies at 7, napped with yennie for a minute. knocked out while yennie studied. met up with turi in lincoln heights. went back to yennies and jane came. dropped off at lollicup, bought boba for the girlies, bussed it to tujunga. talked to some weird alumni from verdugo. got there and danced! :] after went to thalias for a mini poool party!


bonded with alot of the girls, ESPECIALLY KIM<3 shes sooo down ahaha her and yennies boobies!! i love those girls, they made my day. played chicken, me, marifel, & stacy are like undefeated champs! kims so down shes like a girl with the boys mind we all opened up a lot!

then all headed back to thalias, everyone left the bbygirls are sleeping over mi casa so my mommy can take us to l.a without taking the bus! :/ we're magic mic-ing aha and chismesing, and blogging duhh LOL




i hope we sleep well or atleast not sleep at all cuz were waking up at 6 in the morning tomorrow! lol so thankful for my girls + guy [jose<3]

songs of the night:
I DID IT MY WAY; frank sinatra
ITS ALRIGHT ITS OKAY; ashley tisdale
MUSIC OF MY HEART; nsync
I TURN TO YOU; christina aguilara
"for the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on, for everything you do, for everything thats true, i turn to you" <3MY BBYGIRLS!

ive noticed

everyone has pictures and me having NOTHING to do today -.- took pictures just for a blog. talk about lowlife right? LOL whatevers. did not go to practice but actually wanted to go cause they announced jv captains today. went to the dentists to get my stitches cut, it was worse then my actual surgery, frikkin sharp scissors going into my mouth, i thought they were gonna cut my cheek >.< the lady kept missing this ONE LAST STRING and she kept using little tweezer looking things to pull on it, stung a bit :[ i got this
to clean the little holes where my teeth used to be. dad bought a bunch of junk food for us, went to eagle rock plaza finally got eyeliner and eyelash curler that ive been needing lol
went home and got thee cutest key chain from alaska, isnt that the cutest thing you ever saw! :]
lol had an unexpected conversation with him, it was whatevers, proudddd of myself! tomorrow going to yennies at 6 in the morning then practice then swimming at thalias. friday magic mic night at yennies with all the bbygrls plus other people! wooowoo

i guess

woke up at 12 in the afternoon, dad took me and marifel to practice. paid 200 bucks, that hurt :/ watched and talked to alex & roger about random stuff aha "buffalos dont have feathers!" xD after practice decided i really need to get away. cheer coach drove me, yennie, jose, vanessa, & angela to mi casa. walked to the bus stop & picked up thalia along the way. went to yennies, ate goood food, primped, got a ride from a super nice guy, and met up with jaddis. hella awkward when we saw her cause everyone MADE it that way, frikkin immature kids -.- went to go buy drinks from cvs, came back and was dissapointed. went to a montobello party, pretty fun but didnt dance with anyone. yennie was good, thalia dropped her drink LOL. HE popped into my head a couple times but im okay. over all had a good night<3

i just had

an interesting conversation with the most randomest person. lol me and jetson talked about my situation & i finally have a guys perspective on things. he gives surprisingly good advice! aha thee fck right!? gave honest opinions about stuff and people. then talked to bff leeleeanne about it, had the chance to tell her everything in detail, like every single word that was said lol! i feel a little better :] turi didnt help much though, hes like a lil girl -.- but in a way my little pessimistic, dramatic brother thats just looking out.

"i did, she aint all that"
"your top 5"
"why u worryin about a hoe fasho?"
"you never txted me back! ...sorry at work"

LOL!
240 bucks in my wallet, 2 invitations, a doctors note, & some gauze in my bag :]
im ready for tomorrow

next day

so i ended up spending the whole day with jakrin yesterday. it was pretty much bittersweet, we ended up just hanging at my house just us two. we both cried but especially me. he said some things that really hurt, but we went on with the day as friends. watched HES JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU aha ironic much? i was hurting and happy all at the same time.. lol weird. once he left he said something to me that made me sit and think. talked my bbygirls; yennie, marifel, thalia were there for me in my time of need. love you girls<3 made me feel stronger. called jakrin & finally said something for myself, he was speechless. spent the rest of the night til 4 in the morning prankcalling with my girls, made me laugh :) after jakrin was still up and we talked and apparently hes been hiding a lot.. but the stuff he said made me feel sooo much better, im still pessimistic though. i think all the hope was basically sucked out of me in a matter of minutes. to me theres like a 1% chance for anything to happen again & ive finally accepted it. he FINALLY told me whats really been going on in his head. :/ ohwell gotta be strong right? still smilin :] slept at 5 something in the morning, both cried AGAIN but one thing i know for sure theres HELLA SPACE NEEDED.



TODAY; woke up at 12 or 1 in the afternoon to my family coming over<3 burgers, hotdogs, sock it to me cake, and buffalo wings YUM :] jakrin came over to bring the camera for like a minute, then left. the feeling still was bittersweet. had a REALLY good talk with my sister and her boyfriend, they made me feel better. so did my mom <3 shes being pretty understanding about everything im going through. tomorrow shes gonna take me out and shopping :] DESPITE my dads stupid lockdown rule! the fams sleeping over, were debating if we wanna pay 7 bucks to go to verdugos firework show... idk but i guess you can say im doing pretty alright.

july 3

i had my stupid wisdom tooth surgery yesterday... BOO! i hate how my parents are being. im basically on lockdown until wednesday. man its not even my body its my mouth whats walking or just sitting!? im depressed in my house.. and im missing out on my first and last week of REAL vacation. FML. all the bbygirls are going out to JYC & the beach :/ my dad hates me for even asking to go out. i cried last night cuz its already hard being stuck here lonely now im held prisoner in my own home. jakrin talked to me all night until like 1 in the morning just to make sure i was feeling okay. he said hes gonna come see me today and tomorrow. idk it feels nice seeing him again, but its kinda making it harder on both of us but he said he wants to "be there for me." cant really argue with that. its weird talking the way we do now, yet we still talk a lot. he told me things that really hurt a few days ago.. but i guess i mean a lot to him for now..